It’s been three sleepovers, one birthday meal, a wedding reception, endless kissing and finally we’ve seen each other naked. I can relax, safe in the knowledge that tall guy’s height isn’t offset by a tiny penis.
The wedding reception this weekend was The Big One – when we’d share a bed, I’d meet one of his best friends, we’d be out as an almost-couple and we’d be having sex for the first time.
Previously we’d just never got round to it. Things had got pretty heated but neither of us had plucked up the courage to take things up a notch. So it was generally understood that this weekend it would be shag-shag-shag.
Unfortunately we haven’t quite got there yet. It was going amazingly.. his willy is my new favourite thing in the world and it was heaven (well, pretty good) giving him head.
When it came down to penetration though, he just wasn’t hard enough. We gave it a damn good try and the whole thing was still so intense, but we had to call it a night and put it down to alcohol. We tried again the next morning and it was still the same – definitely almost there but not quite. We’re going for nerves now? He stayed over last night too but now we’re just stopping short of penetration and I’m going with it so as not to add any pressure and make an issue of it.
I think (guys, is this right?) that he must know he’s not hard enough or is now just scared to go down that route in case it’s a false start again?
I don’t think it’s a common problem for him and I’m really understanding – it’s frustrating for both of us and must feel crap to not be able to have sex when you want to. Of course I’m not going to tell anyone because it’s between me and him and it’ll sort itself out.
In the meantime I’m just really happy with how things have worked out and a bit terrified that it’s all going to go wrong somewhere down the line, but I just have to ignore that possibility!